27 days to go
July 11 2009
So, with each day we're getting closer to the big day. I'm not going to pretend that I'm not scared. Will I actually go through with this? I really want to, but at the same time I'm not exactly sure how to do this. I just wish I had the support of my family, but I don't and I don't think I ever will...
It makes me sad, cause all I want is to be happy and it's a shame that they can't see that it's been a long time since I was and that this is a way for me to achieve that. But I know that they won't change their minds, but I have to bring it up just one more final time. And then, yeah, I will run away from home cause there's simply no other way. I just hope that my stay won't be filled with my pain and guilt and that I can let it go and be happy about being there.
But we'll see. I think I need help from my friend A, to make the payments and stuff, cause I can't do that from my account.
Please mum and dad, don't make this so hard on me!
So, with each day we're getting closer to the big day. I'm not going to pretend that I'm not scared. Will I actually go through with this? I really want to, but at the same time I'm not exactly sure how to do this. I just wish I had the support of my family, but I don't and I don't think I ever will...
It makes me sad, cause all I want is to be happy and it's a shame that they can't see that it's been a long time since I was and that this is a way for me to achieve that. But I know that they won't change their minds, but I have to bring it up just one more final time. And then, yeah, I will run away from home cause there's simply no other way. I just hope that my stay won't be filled with my pain and guilt and that I can let it go and be happy about being there.
But we'll see. I think I need help from my friend A, to make the payments and stuff, cause I can't do that from my account.
Please mum and dad, don't make this so hard on me!
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