[Papperstrassel]

I wonder why I keep building my life around this illusion. It just complicates everything. But even though I'm asking the question I know the answer. I am well aware of the risks, but I love him. And for once I want to be loved as well.
   And my father hates me, and I don't want it to be like that, but I can't help but thinking it will only make leaving a lot easier. I'm sorry.

I never meant for this to go down this way, I just want to be happy. Is that too much to ask for?