[Papperstrassel]

I've been negelcting again! But I guess it doesn't really matter cause no one's reading anyway.

August is coming closer and I have to admit that I'm scared. Moslty because I've made a promise that is going to be very hard to keep. I want to keep it, I want nothing more but I'm not really sure how I'm going to pull that off.

Enjoy your evening, everybody!

I spent 6 hours at the golf course today, but I didn't play. I was caddie for my dad. I thought that it's a nice way to repay him for things. And I put on sun screen literally all the time! But I still managed to get burned. Amazing. And I thought this morning that the day would be really bad, cause I was so clumsy - or maybe it was just bad luck. It started with me poking my self in the eye while drying my hair after taking a shower. And I poked quite hard so it hurt really bad. Then I hit my head in the ceiling - you know I have a tilted ceiling (whatever you call it in English). And then I hit my toe, and a few minutes later I step on a branch that my dog left right outside the door. Stupid morning.

But I'm quite happy anyway, there was no more misfortunes this day, if you don't count my burned skin, that is...

We're a few weeks in to the summer. Really, what happened to the time? Soon it will be August, and we will have started school yet again. But at least it's for the last time. It's actually my last summer break ever. Isn't that a little weird? Today, I just want to do nothing, maybe read a book, I have a few waiting for me. But my mother wants me to come with her to the golf course. I don't want to, but she always makes me feel so guilty whenever I don't go...

Have a nice day!

I have been watching Megavideo all day. Not all day, but for a few hours (god it still sounds so bad!). It really is the best format, they offer great quality and mostly it isn't buffering. The only problem is that after you've watched it for 72 minutes you have to wait 54 minutes before you can watch again. Of course you can become a member and pay money to get full access, but I won't do that.

Anyway, I actually went to practice today. Yeah, I admit it was kind of fun and I know why I love this sport. But all those things that made me question it is still there and I don't know whether I'm able to overlook them...

The last day of the semester came to an end and since then I've been doing nothing but waiting. I thought I'd be waiting for eleven, maybe twelve hours, but it's thirteen now. What's wrong with me? I'm waiting for something that will never be anything real and it will only end in tears and more tears. But I can't just end it right away, I have to give it a chance. Cause it deserves a chance.

Well, I'm not looking forward to this summer, a summer of sitting around doing nothing and a summer in which I will break many hearts.