[Papperstrassel]

I'm back from Tunisia. It lived up to expectations and gave some new experiences I never expected. I've made a few video blogs that I'll put up here, if I understand how to, and I have a lot of photos. So, that's all I can say for now.

I won't write in a while now. It's a little less than two hours until we're leaving. My aunt's picking us up. I'm starting to get a little bit nervous. This is my first time out of Europe, which I just discovered. Discovered, well I haven't thought about it before. I don't know if that's so big but it's sure fun to see more of the world every time you travel. That makes it kind of boring going back to Great Britain this spring, we went to Scotland last year.

I'm not sure I'm allowed to bring my computer, but internet won't work anyway so it doesn't really matter. I guess I'll leave it. There's so much to think about. Have I remembered everything? I have remembered things I normally forget, such as something to sleep in. I have to get my sunglasses. Nail polish! Can you bring that on the plane? So much to think about!

Well, I guess I'll see you in a week, I will take loads of pictures and probably write down things so that I can remember it for years. This will be great!

Trying to find yourself in this world is not easy. Everyone keeps telling you follow your dreams, but it's not that easy. I understand that the persons saying it has done it, but they are often one out of a few people who actually made it. I want to do a lot of things. I want to model, I want to draw, I want to design and I want to play golf. But all of those things are so hard to advance professionally in. It's possible, but not likely. Not only do you have to be exceptionally good, you have to have the right conditions too. You might have to advertise yourself, or know the right people. Maybe have some sort of education on how to start. There's a lot of things that counts.

But you can make it, don't give up!

I don't know why but my computer's acting real strange at the moment. It runs extremely slow and sometimes doesn't go to the homepages I want it to. Today I want to speak about my goals in life.

Of course I have my less serious goals such as throwing a drink in someone's face and kicking a door in. I have those just for fun, and it's kind of mean really, but you have to be like that sometimes too.
   Okay, seriously. I want to write a book. I don't only want to write one book, I want to write several. Because most of all I want to be a writer. But I have to be realistic. I wouldn't be able to be a writer in the sense I would want to, cause that wouldn't earn me the money I need to live the life I want to. That's not a luxurious life, but it's a life without worrying about the bills, and have enough to allow oneself something good once in a while. Like a nice vacation and so.

To write a book I say is a reasonable goal. I write good enough, I don't even doubt that (and I have very low confidence). I understand it's hard to get it published and it's a lot of work to do not only writing it, which is hard enough. I'm going to write and publish numerous books in my lifetime. If I qualify as a writer or not is not really important to me.

I guess that's one of my few goals that are really deep. I get moments where I'm really into something, but it doesn't really stick. But writing a book. Oh, heaven.

Thank you for listening to my bullshit (excuse me for my rough words), I guess you don't even think I'm capable of writing a book cause you haven't seen any quality in these texts. But you'll see. I will get published.

My feelings haven't really changed since last night. It took me a while to fall asleep. And this morning I had planned to take a nice shower, but the water was ice cold. Thanks, family. I mean, even if someone does shower, how long showers can you take in the morning for all the warm water to disappear? But I had to wash my hair so I had to do it - in cold water. Horrible.

I'm sitting here with my note pad in front of me. I have a presentation in History tomorrow. I actually have one in Social Studies as well but let's talk about the History for now. It's only a three minute presentation, so it shouldn't be that big of a deal, right? But the person I'm portraying is John Kay, an inventor from the industrial revolution. He invented the Flying Shuttle. I have found some information about how it works, but I don't understand. Did I mention it's tomorrow?

Can you see why I'm all stressed out?

Friday night is here! Earlier, I wrote a to do list. Shall we see how far I've come?

2. I have washed my cat, at least once. I'm doing it again before I go to bed.

3. I did go shop! I bought the dress, from SALT, and I bought a pair of jeans from Indiska, and from H&M I got both a pair of shorts and a sleeveless shirt. And on the way home we brought a cup of tea that we enjoyed on the train. And I did not fall asleep - which is a huge success considering it was sort of the first time.

4. I have not watched a movie yet, and maybe I won't watch a movie, I might just watch a comic on http://www.youtube.com/. We'll make it cozy no matter what.

So I declare this Friday the thirteenth a successful day without horror and misfortunes. And I did see my old friend J on the subway, but she didn't see me so we didn't say hello. She was pretty far away, so.

My math was cancelled today so I'm already home and it's only noon.

So, what does this Friday thirteenth has in store for me?
1. Go to school (did that, we celebrated Valentine's day which is tomorrow)
2. Clean my cats wound (I've done it once, but I have two or three times left to do)
3. Shop (going in to the city to meet my sis and shop, there's a cute dress at salt that I think I'm going to get)
4. Cozy with tea, movies and muffins (muffins is cupcakes but more Swedish, although mine doesn't taste like either of them)

That's it. I was supposed to sit at seven eleven and drink a cup of tea and study, waiting for my sister. But since I got to quit school early I went home instead and now I don't have to wait for her. so we'll se about the studying.

But one thing I'm not going to do today is to have bad luck. I think it's good luck to not have math, so maybe I've broken the curse. Have the best weekend!

I had to do so many things this morning beside my normal routine. I had to wash the cats wound, I had to clean my fingers from excess nail polish and things like that. And I also miscalculated the time so the last few minutes were really stressful, but I made it, and then my mother says: "Didn't you want to ride with me?" Like, what? When did she offer me a ride? But of course I accepted it once I'd heard it and now I have nothing to do. I've petted my cat for a while, and now I'm writing here, but it won't do. I still have quite a lot of time to do absolutely nothing on. In this case, I'm not sure that's a good thing. I could have slept way longer than I did!

Okay, I'm not going to complain, I am getting a ride to school. I feel that's quite a luxury. Not to everyone, but to me.

I just got back from school, it ended with a really hard German test. I wasn't surprised though, cause they tend to always be that hard. But when I was walking from the train I got really mad. I walk on a bigger road because that's the fastest way home. And some of the cars that drive pass me drive so freaking close! It's scary, it feels like they're going to bump into me. And what do I do? Jump off the road and in to the mud. Nice, really. I know I shouldn't walk there, but I am allowed to! So why don't they just drive a bit further from me? It's not like we met another car or something either. I just can't understand the drivers. Many of them anyway.

And I'm baking cupcakes. Swedish cupcakes, not thick, glazed American cupcakes. So I'm going to dedicate everything to that now, and let my anger fade away.

It wasn't as hard as I thought, getting up at 5.30. Afterwards, I skipped school (which you really shouldn't do!) and headed in to the city. And I got to meet my trainers son! He's like a few months and really tiny and he was sleeping the whole time. My trainer said he looks just like he looked at that age. But don't parents always say that?

And I'm getting ready for practice, it's just that I actually have this school thing I should attend. Some lady's going to talk about her expedition to Arctic and the life of polar bears ore something. But I can't go, cause I don't feel too well and I think that I will feel a lot better going to practice than going to school, and I have to prioritize my health.

After today I have a lot of studying to catch up, and It's overwhelming. I feel tired just thinking of it. But I'll take the train ride to relax with my book. I couldn't read it on my way home because it was so sad and I started crying, something I don't like doing on a train filled with people.

Tootles!

It's up, up, up early tomorrow, as I said. But at least I got to sleep today. I have done my homework, I've left the things I couldn't understand. And I haven't got time for anything else. I came home, vacuum cleaned downstairs, went up to my room and began my studies, wrote on my blogg, took a break for dinner, came back up to study, watched Design: Simon & Thomas, and did the rest of the homework. I can assure it wasn't easy. Those rules are really complicated.

And don't know why, I'm quite chocked actually, but my cat is lying on my bed. He never does that, he usually hates my bed and my room. But he is here voluntarily too, which never happens. Sometimes I can convince him to sleep with me or so, but like this, it just doesn't happen.

Oh, well. I'd better enjoy it while it lasts and go lay down next to him. I have to get up early anyway.

I'm studying, but not like usual. Last week we got an assignment at the golf rule education. We got a paper with different happenings and we're supposed to know what's the right way to solve them or if they're according to the rules and such. I forgot the Rules book but there's a page where you can look at it online, but my computer has decided to be really slow so it's frustrating as well as it's already hard and boring on top of it. And it's due tomorrow, we're leaving at seven so I have to get up before six. It's not like I'm longing for it. I don't want to go anyway.
   But I'll give it another go. I'll bring some treats to make it easier to go through.

I'll write some more later!

I just drank this really horrible vaccine. We're preparing for Tunisia. That's where we're going in two weeks! It wasn't as disgusting as I expected it to be, but I feel like puking. It's the aftertaste that's just dreadful. I feel like throwing up. I can't eat or drink for an hour so the tea I had is just getting colder and colder and I can't drink it. And by the way, I read in the newspaper that they haven't done enough studies to confirm it's affectivity yet.

Yesterday we decided to find our passports and put them somewhere we will be sure to find them when it's time to go. We did find them, but my mother has a little problem. Her passport is only valid until June this year. And for some stupid reason it has to be valid for at least 6 months after you arrive back in Sweden. How stupid is that? If you're traveling inside Europe it has to be valid for three months.

I can understand why they would have a short period, but six months? It's a little unnecessary I think. So hopefully it'll work out anyway. She has to call the embassy and ask what do to, maybe she can get some sort of permit anyway or have time to get a new passport. It's by far the dumbest thing I have ever heard.

And it's begun. The Eurovision Song Contest - Sweden's audition. I didn't really like any of the songs. Emilia's was okay, and it came second, the first song, can't remember it's name, was good but it was voted out.

Now I'm going to watch Without a Trace so I better hurry up so I won't miss the beginning. My room is almost done but not completely, and I feel stressed out cause I haven't studied anything today. I can't read this through so I apologize for all the mistakes I might have made.

At the moment I'm having a break from my big project this weekend. Redecorating my room! I've finished the cleaning part and I've moved some furniture out, so it's located in the hall for now. I will show you some pictures when it's done, but I'm not sure that'll be today.

And tonight is the first competition in Melodifestivalen! I had no idea who was going to perform until this morning, cause they were all in the newspaper. It'll be fun but unfortunately there's no Kristian Luuk this year, and no Björn Gustafsson as pause entertainment. But last year I didn't even know he was going to do that until like five minutes before the show. And it has been good in the past.
   I'm not a big fan of Petra Mede either, she's the host this year. But I'm very open and I won't be judgmental about her. But if I still won't like her, I will complain.

I've finished my lunch (almost) so I will get back to my room! You will hear from me later today because I will tell you how I feel about the contestants and their songs!

Till then: Enjoy life!

I've realized I've written numerous times while eating breakfast, or after just finishing it. So I decided to show a picture of it. If you want further information on what it is, you can ask me, but I think the picture says it all. And it's only two weeks till I'm going out of the country! Till it's a break, no school. Warmth, golf, no studying - what more can you ask for? Not too much. And I'm glad that I'm not sharing a room with my parents, I get my own room! It doesn't make a big difference, but a little. Oh, it's going to be so fun!!

But now I'm going to watch Girl: Interrupted with my sister. It's a really good movie, you should definitely see it.

Okay, I had written the longest text just now, and just as I was doing the finishing touches, like correcting the spelling and stuff, I erased it. It wasn't intentionally, of course!

It said something like this:

The funniest thing happened this morning! Right after I posted the latest text I went downstairs to put my jacket and shoes on. There's still eight minutes before the time we set out for them to come pick me up. So my sister T comes down the stairs, telling me there's a big car by the road. And I know that S has a big car. So I barge in to my other sisters room, from where I can see the road. And there it is, S's car. And as I hurry, I hear a voice saying: "You thought it was time for me to get up, or what?" At first, I thought it was all in my head, but then I realized it wasn't. My sister apparently was at home, sleeping. I woke her up and I really was too focused on the road to even notice she was lying in her bed! Very rude. But hey, she wasn't happy and I got a morning laugh out of it. I guess it was worth it.

And then I wrote a little about practice. We were at the gym, as I said, with a personal trainer. She was good, I think, and she had really good looking arm and back muscles. She showed us some exercises with free weights. Of course, it was all related to golf. But you know what, they're good for anyone.

Now I got to go make dinner so that I will have time to eat before practice (yeah, I'm not finished for today yet)
Bye! (I'm going to try not to erase this one)

Hey, guess what? I'm not sitting at my own computer today. Oh my god. No, I'm just kidding, it's no big deal. It's hard to type, cause I'm not used to this keyboard, but the screen's a lot bigger and that's great.

I was only looking up when my train departures, my computer is upstairs so. I'm ordering some clothes from H&M by the way, a cardigan, a pair of shorts, a dress and a skirt. I think that's it, but it's quite a lot of money just disappearing.

Oh, well. I've got to go change - basketball practice is coming up!

It's almost 9 pm and as my hectic life is evolving I'm soon going to bed. I almost can't take it anymore, but then again I'm not trying hard enough. If I work out more, my energy will go up. And my body will function better, because the right training provides that.
   I just finished my weekly report and I have just analyzed this problem there. I was thinking it might help if I eat better, so I will try to talk to people about that to see what I should do. I will start with my golf coach. Cause he's the one reading my reports and if he sees me trying to change what I talk about it might earn me some extra points.

Now I will go on with my busy and tiring life and watch Sex and the City, which is on TV right now, judging from the sound of it.

Good Night!